Lissa's Review: Cam Girl by Leah Raeder
Publisher via Netgalley Publisher: Atria Released: November 3rd 2015 Genre: Lesbian Romance, Suspense Length: 320 pages Format: eBook, Paperback Add to Goodreads Buy Links Author Links
Vada Bergen is broke, the black sheep of her family, and moving a thousand miles away from home for grad school, but she’s got the two things she loves most: her art and her best friend—and sometimes more—Ellis Carraway. Ellis and Vada have a friendship so consuming it’s hard to tell where one girl ends and the other begins. It’s intense. It’s a little codependent. And nothing can tear them apart.Until an accident on an icy winter road changes everything.
Vada is left deeply scarred, both emotionally and physically. Her once-promising art career is cut short. And Ellis pulls away, unwilling to talk about that night. Everything Vada loved is gone.
She’s got nothing left to lose.So when she meets some smooth-talking entrepreneurs who offer to set her up as a cam girl, she can’t say no. All Vada has to do is spend a couple hours each night stripping on webcam, and the “tips” come pouring in.
It’s just a kinky escape from reality until a client gets serious. “Blue” is mysterious, alluring, and more interested in Vada’s life than her body. Online, they chat intimately. Blue helps her heal. And he pays well, but he wants her all to himself. No more cam shows. It’s an easy decision: she’s starting to fall for him. But the steamier it gets, the more she craves the real man behind the keyboard. So Vada pops the question:Can we meet IRL?Blue agrees, on one condition. A condition that brings back a ghost from her past.
Now Vada must confront the devastating secrets she's been running from—those of others, and those she's been keeping from herself... Four (3.5) Boundless Stars
After losing use of her arm, as an Artist, Vada is a bit lost. Her relationship with her BFF/Girlfriend is a strained one. But the accident, what happened? What is Vada hiding? The whole time I was like just tell me! The suspense kills.
Vada is interesting, she seems like she's so lost in the lie that she created. She's turned to being a Cam Girl. Helping her not think of Ellie or really anything.
"This world is so thick with ghosts it's a wonder anyone can breathe."
This story had me so confused. I feel as though I'm still digesting everything. These two are so screwed up but yet there's beauty. If that even makes sense. I don't think Vada's secret was super soul crushing. I think really it was just eating at her and at her. Till she would rather not feel and sell herself to men or women she would never know. The money though, sure wasn't bad.
I'm not even sure how many stars I should give. It was more than ok but I had to ask myself, did enjoy this? It felt very artsy (maybe cause she's an artist) but also it moved slowly. It was like a form of poetry. It was a story for a real deep thinker, one who could look past all the fog in front of them. It was good though, interesting, well played and on the verge of sanity. So I feel I'm in between with a 3.5. Since I'm unable to do a 3.5, I have to give it a four.
I really imagined this as an independent film. Where the director is giving you bits and pieces. Wanting you to have that ah ha! Moment.